its the NEW YEAR!
yes 2009 has reached our shores.
goodbye 2008! hello 2009!
Happy New Year everybody! whoever you might be!
my loved one (baby that's you), my family and my friends, here's to you having a great new year!
okay. all things aside, a little recollection is the order of the day, along with some pretty iffy resolutions!
now, i started 2008 in some sort of a mess.
READ:
1) doing nothing all day
2) wasting precious time and money just bumming
3) nothing on the horizon to look out for
4) no goals to aim for
i was, yes, i was practically a bum. from january to march i had nothing to do, and no idea of what i would become.
i cleaned up my act, and by april had found a job, and one which i liked, for all the nice people i met, and the things that i learnt there.
a significant chapter of my life, the start of a beautiful one and the end of a another which frittered out ugly towards the end.
working at SPH made me realise that all i've been doing all along was NOTHING. whereby everyone else was working hard, for whatever reasons they have, their family, their personal goals. it woke me up, and i knew i had to stop the rot.
i did my job the right and proper way, with hard work and luck, though i admit it gets boring sometimes ;)
but still i think i did it well enough. the occasional talks i had with Matt and the casual ones with Ee Kheng and Ed and the rest brought into view things that i had been blind to before, and i learnt a lot from them.
it was with a heavy heart that i left SPH for ARMY life in september.
my "induction" into army life was in september. and from september till the end of the year its been nothing but a hell of a chore. but hey. it'll be over soon!
i've been in some thoughts about army recently, brought into focus by baby, one of which had been in my thoughts for some time before that. maybe i'll act on it soon, and see how it goes.
in my honest opinion, i think i did well, cleaning up my act and putting in motion what i should have done a long time ago, so im going to say i had a rather fruitful work year. =)
on another account, my personal life.
it's been a beautiful year, now i know it was the end AND beginning of one. but i say in all honesty that it has been for the better.
in my past relationship, now long forgotten and never thought of, i was a bum, im ashamed to say. i did nothing worthwhile. yup. nothing worthwhile, and its not something im proud about.
and while the relationship petered out as i started cleaning up my act and opening my eyes wide, i realised that it was better for myself to start over.
im sorry to say that looking back, it wouldnt be harsh for me to think that it was a regrettable relationship. like i said, i did nothing of note, and that sucks, when i think of it now.
now what's past is past, water under the bridge, and i wouldnt want to speak ill of anybody, but look at it this way.
1) i frittered away all of my savings
2) i had no goals
3) no motivation
4) living an unhealthy lifestyle
5) i was unhappy with unreasonable demands, and a total lack of breathing space
im glad it ended.
and then i met vanessa, and i say this with a smile, not because im head over heels in love with her, but because its the truth, there's no bias in it.
she opened my eyes to a whole new world of happenings, thoughts, and ideas.
in a way, it was like an awakening of sorts.
all our heart to heart talks have only brought us closer,
and the times we've spent together have been enjoyable and happy.
arguments we've had our share, but we've come out of each argument stronger, and happier.
i've grown as a person, and she's played a big part in my growing up process.
she's been a great pillar of strength, and i hope im playing a big part in her life too.
i now have
1) goals that i set for myself
2) the motivation to keep improving myself, for me, and us
that's very important to me now, because i want to know that i can do well, and be a good person.
im happy, very happy.
she's brought a whole lot of colours into my life, and made it wonderful, and amazing.
a big part of my life she's become.
and she's made it complete =)
its just like a jigsaw puzzle, it wouldnt be complete without the final piece in the middle, and likewise, my jigsaw puzzle wouldnt be complete without the final piece. the lovely lady whom i love and treasure. vanessa=)
cheers to us baby, clink glasses of champagne, and drink up, for now, and always!
okay. is it getting a little mushy? haha
honestly, i think over the last year, i've had the most wonderful time of my life, meeting her, getting to know her, and falling in love with her. it's been a wonderful year.
i love you vanessa, truly, madly, deeply.
10,
9,
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3,
2,
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i ushered in the new year with baby as the people started counting down. it was wonderful, just the way i hoped it would be.
we bade farewell to 2008, and waved hello to 2009, and we sealed it with a deep kiss. a sweet and lingering one.
i think, and i know its been a long long post. and i know ive said i would state down some resolutions for the year, but i think i'll leave that for the next post.
once again everybody, have a fruitful year filled with lots of surprises!
signed, sealed and delivered with cheers,
jonathan!
